This post will be much more personal and revealing than the majority of my others. You have been warned! Okay, if you wish to read on, here we go. I will happily admit that I am a sentimental person. So, as any year draws to a close, I take the time to reflect on the memories of the past twelve months. For 2015, I sure have a lot of memories to think about! This year has undoubtedly been the biggest, best, most influential year of my life. However, it has not been smooth sailing – including the fact that my dad had a heart attack, I broke up with my boyfriend and I started a new job, all in the space of three days! Here is a very honest look into my year that was 2015.
Lived in the United States
I have written about this so much on my blog already and everyone is probably sick of hearing about it, but I have to quickly mention it. After all, I started 2015 by celebrating New Year’s in Seattle, watching the fireworks off the Space Needle. Spending the first half of the year living in the United States was obviously the most significant experience of my year – and probably of my life to date. It was simply incredible/amazing/unbelievable. And I learnt so much about myself in the process, including that I am not afraid to voice my opinions and I am a lot less tolerant of dealing with disingenuous people than I realised. My perspectives on a few of things changed too. If you want to read more about my exchange to the University of South Carolina, click here.
Dad had a heart attack
Exactly two weeks after I returned home from the US, my dad suffered a severe heart attack. I have never had to confront my parents’ mortality before, so it was an extremely difficult experience. I completely shut down emotionally. The only time I briefly cried about it was when I received the initial phone call from my mum to tell me what had happened, while I was out to dinner with friends. After that, I just felt completely numb to everything, as though I was a robot. I never would have expected to react like that. My dad is one of my favourite people on the planet, so I simply could not process that he was close to losing his life. Thankfully, after a couple of procedures and a bucketful of ongoing medication, he has pulled through okay. 🙂
Ended a relationship
Within a couple of days of my dad’s heart attack, I broke up with my boyfriend, who I had maintained a long distance relationship for the entire time I was in the US. Yes, we spent nearly six months apart, only for me to end it within a couple of weeks of returning to Australia. I am the worst. I have not written about this before, as I am not proud of what happened. When I came back to Australia, I simply realised that my feelings had changed, which may be due to personal growth I had experienced while in the US. It is so painful to end a relationship when you have no reason other than that your feelings have changed, especially when they are an incredible person and you cannot put your finger on why you feel the way you do. With the stress of my dad’s heart attack, who was still in hospital at the time, I ended the relationship very hastily. This was definitely a low point for my year. Even now, six months on, I sometimes wonder whether I made a mistake.
Started a new job
The next day after my breakup, I had my first day of a new job. Crazy. The timing was actually quite good, as it kept my mind off things. It was still a weird experience to finish work in the afternoons during my first week and then go straight to hospital to visit my dad in the evenings. This administrative role in the police has turned out to be the best job I could possibly ask for at this stage of my life. I absolutely love my boss and all the people I work with. I am so grateful to them for teaching and involving me in things that go beyond the scope of my role description. It is such a fun, flexible working environment. I honestly cannot believe how lucky I am. It sounds like such an ass-kissing thing to say, but it is seriously true. You can ask any of my friends how much I rave about my job. (Nic, if you are reading this, thank you again and again for helping me get this job!)
Also, an ex-boyfriend used to describe my life as being ‘Disney’ – as I have a loving, close-knit family, live in a nice home and have a generally very happy, calm life. Well, this job has definitely confirmed that for me! Working for the police has exposed me to just how crazy, sad and sick many other people’s lives are, which has made me much more grateful of my own.
Bought a new car
My beloved first car (a Honda Civic) unfortunately had a few too many issues – including broken air-conditioning, which is like a death wish during summer here in Queensland. So, I was in need of an upgrade. I never planned to buy a brand new car, but the price was right, so I did. I am in love with my new blue Mazda 2. On the topic of costly new purchases, I also finally upgraded my phone to an iPhone 6s. Yes, I simply could not resist the rose gold. It is safe to say that this year has cost me a lot of money, especially in light of spending the first six months overseas too!
Pretended to be the Bachelorette
I have probably dated more guys in the second half of this year alone than I have in the rest of my life combined. Following the end of my relationship, I decided I just wanted to enjoy being 22 and have fun dating men, without worrying about anything too serious. So, I have done exactly that. I have had some weird experiences, as well as some lovely ones, so it has been an interesting journey. The good news is that I have not completely lost faith in males yet. Do I want another relationship right now? To be honest, I am constantly changing my mind about what I want, which starting to really frustrate me. I guess if the right guy came along, I just have to hope that I would recognise him!
Finished my 5th year of university
It is hard to believe, but I have finished five years of university, with only one semester to go! I am struggling to comprehend that I am nearing the end of my LLB/BA, as graduating has always seemed so far away. University has not been easy for me and there have been so many times that I have thought about dropping out of law school, especially in the first two years. So, when I finally reach my graduation day, it will be one of the proudest and happiest days of my life. I am excited for this, but am also somewhat scared to go out into the real world. Oh well, bring on my next adventure!
Grew this blog
This year has seen a substantial increase in the reach of this blog. Its viewing numbers are about four times higher than this time last year, which is exciting. They are still not massive, but I am pleased with any progress. It has continued to be such a therapeutic, fun outlet for me this year and was a great way to keep connected with people back home while I was in the US. I have also received many amazing comments from complete strangers around the world, many of which have thanked me for helping them get tours of the White House. This makes me incredibly happy. I was also asked to be featured in an article for Webjet Australia, which was fun!
There are some of my highs and lows for 2015. It has been one hell of an amazing year! I am particularly happy with how significantly I have grown as a person. There are still a couple of weeks remaining in the year, so who knows what may happen. In the meantime, I would like to wish everyone a very merry Christmas. May 2016 bring an abundance of happiness, good health and laughter. It has big shoes to fill!